together we're heavy

i posted this great post, only to have the internet go down at work when i hit "publish".
here's the gist since i am tired now. i have always detested getting up in the night to go to the restroom. i will also wake up a bit and think to myself, "can i hold it until morning?" usually the answer is yes. lately, the answer is always NO. this irritates me a lot, but luckily, i can get back to sleep, so i'd better just get used to it. usually, if i have to, it will somehow incorporate into my dreams. i remember once when i was really young, i dreamt that i was in the bathroom, hence, i wet the bed. i woke up thinking, "but i was IN the bathroom, i just know it!" last night, i dreamt that i was given a bedpan for these occasions when i needed to go in the night! thankfully, i sort of woke up as i was "dream-putting" the "bedpan" under myself, while thinking to myself, "this is hard! i wonder how old people do this?" i hastily got up and went across the 5' hall to the bathroom. let's pray that i keep waking up in these dreams! hahahaha!